YouTube Video 1 Fear Is A Constant Companion And Fear Is An Automatic Response Of Our Humanness.
YouTube Video 2 Fears That Have Been Hiding Within Nooks And Crannies If Your Being.
YouTube Video 3 Fear Templates Of The World
You Tube Video 4 The Phenomenon Of Guilt And Fear
Fears’ definition of boundaries is it is a constant companion of failure, letdowns, heartache, pain, warnings, threats, and excuses, and it is also a constant companion of motivated success and negative ambition.
Fear is the universal Planetary wake-up call that is ringing in most but not all of our ears and vibrating at the core of all our beings. This is where we as an individual and as a collective produce change out of necessity, or to produce change out of the pause, or to produce change out of reflection, or to produce change out of the friction, or to produce change from change.
Fear function can twist, alter, and distort; fear can destroy, fear can change, but fear can also expand and grow because fear is very real indeed. You see, Fear exists past the illusions of your reality.
Fear is a real energy a real force.
If we abandon our character, our dignity, our love, our integrity, and our consciousness, we replace it with fear.
Fear’s functions can be negative, but also fear functions can be positive as well.
Fear Has Several Functions
Since fear is real, fear does exist beyond your physical reality and illusion. Why because fear is very real indeed.
Fear’s functions can be contracting and restricting, but also, on the other side of the pendulum, fear can be expanding. Fear’s functions can be negative, of course, but can also be positive.
The function of fear is an instinctive reaction and response and automatic response of your humanness and instincts.
The limbic system consists of an almond-shaped gland called the Amygdala (responsible for fight or flight and processing emotions) in the brain that triggers electric magnetic energy, FEAR, Fear bypasses the thought process, the word process, all logical and reasoning of thinking and instead triggers fear instinctively.
The Limbic brain, with its various ventricles, with its various glands, hypothalamus, mamillary, Hippocampus, Pineal, pituitary, corpus, etc., all respond instinctively to fight, flight, or freeze.
The limbic brain Feeds and reproduces instinctive fear responses. Neurol pathways have been formed, dedicated lines, of a direct line of fear.
The very chemistry and electromagnetics create an instinctive response.
That is, fear functions to bypass everything and instead create a fight, flight, or freeze to protect you. This has been ingrained, rewired, and built-in fear throughout your lifetimes on planet Earth.
Fear Numb, Disarm You And Leave You Dysfunctional.
When the functions of fear are negative, they function as a substitute, as a motivator, as an anesthetic, and as manipulation.
Negative fear imprisons and numbs you. Negative fear putrifies into bitterness, resentment, and then into an addiction.
Negative fear numbs and disables you and leaves you dysfunctional, all tied up in knots. Negative fear fosters control over you and leaves you powerless. Negative fear impedes you, suffocating you.
There Are Old Fears That Are Supposed To Be Done, Finished, Completed, And Ended.
The old fears did generate this sense and feeling of separation, with its struggle, with its exhaustion, with its paranoia, with its overprotectiveness, with its avoid this and avoid that, with its jeopardy, with its threat.
These old fears threaten you with loss, they threatened with exposure, they threatened with confrontation, threatened with rejection, threatened with judgment, they threatened with punishment, and they threatened your very existence in a physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual way.
Your existence of doing, your existence of having, and your existence of possessing. This is what the old fears did
The new fears also, yes, threaten too, threaten your very existence, but they threaten your existence of being and of presence that is beyond what you do, beyond what you have, beyond what you possess, that is in the realm of who and what you really are.
Fear is the thought and the feeling of separation, alone and therefore lonely, forever.
It is the thought and feeling single and plural of thoughts and feelings of being separate. If being alone and therefore lonely forever, eternity.
This is the core, this is the seed, the seminal central energy of all fear. This is not the fullness nor the dimension and depth of fear, it is the core of the seed of fear energy.
For this core, this seed, this seminal energy to truly manifest, to truly become fear, two other conditions must be met. That is this thought and feeling of separation and being separate, alone and therefore lonely, alone and lonely forever, must threaten your very existence, and it puts that very existence in jeopardy.
When you feel separate and alone, you will be feeling ostracized, alienated, boycotted, disoriented, confused, misplaced, abandoned, rejected, etc. When you feel lonely, that could create a feeling of depression, sadness, being left out, not good enough, unworthy, etc., which could be a wide variety of feelings but does not necessarily make you afraid.
Sometimes being alone is a grand and glorious thing called solitude. Those who want to be alone and want to live a life separate from the rhythms, cadence, beats, flow of events, and rhythmic patterns of consensus, such as self, magicians, and healers, looking for that self-imposed exile will definitely experience that sense of alone not necessarily lonely.
Just that thought and feeling of being separate, lonely, and alone generates fear, especially when those very same thoughts and feelings threaten your very existence and put your existence in jeopardy.
When you are standing out on a street corner, and you see a thug all dressed up with knives and guns, tattoos, rings, piercings, etc., and he comes at you. You have a certain sense of separateness rising within. Before they walk by me I can be very alone and lonely. My very existence feels threatened and is in jeopardy. That’s fear.
New Fears Will Arise And Will Emerge As You Move Forward.
It’s time to transform fear into a magical success
The point of readiness and being prepared, the fact that you stand ready will generate new fears.
There are also, several other factors that will generate these new fears.
The first is the phenomena of resonance or the phenomena that resonate with causation.
The old paradigm of causation, the upward causation, causation or causal theory, or The Cartesian philosophy.
Let us take “Newtonian physics. Newton’s first law states that every object will remain at rest or in uniform motion in a straight line unless compelled to change its state by the action of an external force.” An ex is a billiard ball colliding type causation that does general these new types of fears.
But resonate causation new paradigm of causation increases its influence as the days and weeks, months and years unfold can generate fears and new kinds of fears.
If you have a resonance of fear you will attract more Fear
Fears that you have been using, perhaps even pretending you are not conscious and perhaps convincing yourself you’re not consciously using.
Fears you have been using get Forced to the surface. Fears have become your avenue of least resistance over the years, and the automatic response of your humanness, instinctive response, and survival needs of fight, flight, or freeze. Resonates will push the old fears to the surface.
You see when your current resonance and frequency, vibration, or standing wave of the various components of self that are you. That current resonance has a place and space for your fears. When that resonance rises, when that resonance increases, when it becomes rarer, deeper, more real, those rattles of fear come up to the surface to be exposed.
The flatheads, the sharps, the jagged ends, the broken pieces, the half pieces, the little pieces, the hard-to-reach pieces within, etc., that are not supposed to be in your harmony, tranquillity, inner peace, etc., all of a sudden become irritatingly, annoying and squeaky. As your resonance rises, these that can not be sustained, that cannot be suspended by your suppression techniques, these fears that you have been using, however secretly or openly. These avenues of least resistance or least effort come to the surface to be faced and cleared out.
It is like the immune system that searches for foreign elements or alien energy. Your immune system finds them, then encapsulates them, and then moves them out to the surface.
Resonance, like your immune system, seeks out and finds these pieces of viruses, jagged pieces, of fears, and encapsulates them and moves them out the surface to get rid of them.
Fears that you have been using all of a sudden will show up even though they have not been a problem in your resonance. Certain fears, yes, and old fears that you have not completely released, been avoiding, that you have done some of the work on, let go of most of, have not fully released, haven’t fully ended, like residue. It gets shaken, vibrated, and brought to the surface to be vented, revealed, and healed. Some of these are yet-to-be-finished fears, as a result of resonance, become conscious.
Now Is The Time To Transform Your Fear Into A Thriving, Bountiful And Magical Success.
The forms of fear you know, and there are many techniques with which to work.
You see the forms of fear you may know too well.
This is what you know: there will be fears, and it is up to you now to face them or run from them.
Some fears are not intended to be ended, though, but instead intended to move beyond.
You see, there are blockages, entanglements, hooks, etc., that are there to be revealed, released, handled, and healed. However, there seem to be those blockages and entanglements that never seem to go away. No matter what you do or how much healing you do, they are still there. Why is this? Because they are not intended to be left or intended to be disconnected, but instead, they are intended to be transformed from enemies Into alleys.
Facing your fears is essential now to your growth and development; it is part of your evolution; they are essential to your growth from the you who was to the one who is. To the you who possess to you, that is at a state of being and mind.
With certain fears, the new fears are not intended to be obliterated or ignored but instead intended to be faced, and used and are intended to be a part of your growth, expansion, depth, and mix of who you are as a being not by who you are by what you are, or what you do, or have, but defined by a state of being.
These new fears will arise and will emerge partly from what we already suggested as a result of readiness, the result of proximity, that fact that you stand ready.
New Fear Entanglements
There are many new entanglements with new names but with new functions, new forms, new reasons, etc.
It is time now for greater awareness and understanding of the fear that is within and around you. It is time For deeper knowing and it is time now to explore deep within you. Let us explore these new types of perpetuating fears with new names, new functions, new reasons, etc. Together
Let us dive into learning new techniques to heal impeding fear that has you stuck in quicksand hiding you in your addictions, short of breath, chest tightness, wanting to fight, freeze or flight from your dreams.
The old forms, the old fears are ending the new forms, the new fears are forming and are meant to move beyond not to be hooked upon. It is time now to learn new techniques that will change your life forever. Are you ready lightworkers?
You have all become so beautiful and powerful experts at working in the past, your past. You have also, mastered these techniques and applied them when needed. The techniques have been your antidote to your ambiguous, not simple but easy and fun to love past.
Your task divine one, way seer and magician of loves embrace are to learn how to work with the ever-changing tides of the future And that means learning how to work with and heal these new entanglements that most but not all are hooked up in and can not see a way out of.
The way to work with the new fears is not the same way you have learned in the past but a new way and techniques bound and born of the past but instead a technique generated and born of the future. Born of Sirian and Lemurian love.
Therefore, you have gathered here beautiful rays of love and we have gathered with you. Let us begin to untangle the past, the future guilt, and fears together as one love.
Take your self through a tender trust healing method to heal deep Fears. Let us move beyond these entanglements that have been hooking you up for all those years and for some lifetimes now.
You divine one is ready, ready to search for greater depths of love, power, greater heights of success, and happiness. You divine one is ready to accept new levels of depths, truths, achievements, accomplishments, and reality within reality, new dimensions of miracles, forgotten magic, forgotten love, and magic with fantasia dreams and visions. Just look at you, how far you have come you are so ready to embark on this journey, this new journey of beginnings. Let us embark on this journey together.
Fear is nothing fear is a perception, change your Perception and fear goes away. Heal the fear through the principle of God/Goddess in man and woman, that you are enough, the love within comes from the father and mother, and the will of love and you will release the fear.
Let’s embrace the new in your life. Let’s embrace new people, places and opportunities. We learn about our selves through new experiences. Let us open to new approaches and experiences. This way we will learn new ways of looking at situations. The new beginning is for you
If you would like to heal any of your old fears and new fears that are rising to the conscious surface then feel free to contact me.
Peace is a result when one conquers his/ her deepest fears
Such strong words, and they have such harsh corners; it almost makes someone cringe just at the word and sound of shame. It’s a very important thing to look at and a frightening concept as well
People who feel a tremendous amount of shame go through their lives pretending that they don’t, shun the very word and shun the very concept. Therefore, reading my write-ups on how to end shame says something about you: shame for the person who doesn’t want to be said. Therefore, ironically and sadly, they are the ones who need to hear the most of what we will talk about, those who are most weary and frightened and to listen. Some suggest perhaps the title ending Shame is a little too harsh that we should come up with a softer romantic title, something that would not be so intimidating. Let’s just call a spade a spade and not call it an airy-fairy around-the-corner name. Let’s talk about ending shame and let’s call it daily write-ups ending shame.
The word itself is very difficult to define and even more difficult to understand the concept of shame. But the most difficult of all is to comprehend and deal with the feeling of shame.
Even though shame is a current world problem unlike some you might forcibly have, it’s a current life problem. Each of you developed shame at a time before you had language. Making it difficult to define.
Shame is rooted and established in the preverbal infancy and Each of you has shame. Yes, every one of you has shame to various degrees. Some, in that sense, have been a healthy shame, but far too many of you. Indeed, it has been an unhealthy prisoning shame. But everybody has shame; everyone who is of the human condition or the human persuasions has shame.
Shame is a real emotion and potentially has positive as well as the more overt obvious negative impact. That is the first point that is so vitally important to realize. That shame is a real emotion. Guilt is a fabrication, and it has negative implications, but shame is a real emotion and, therefore, as a real emotion, has both positive and negative sides. A light face and a dark face are seen and unseen. That is part of it
When shame is positive and expressed it’s a tremendously powerful and a vitally important part of your human development. When it’s negative, it can be tremendously destructive. To that very human development.
Shame is an emotion that can facilitate finding self or instigate the denial of self.
Shame is also a state of being it is more than an emotion where it begins as a feeling and becomes a state of being. Where you might feel shame initially, where it is internalized to a certain point, you no longer feel shame. You are shame.
#1. Why is it that when you have defective shame you lose your Freedom
Has Your Freedom Been Taken Away By Shame And Are You Now A Prison Of Your Shame?
You, As A Human Being, Have Certain Freedoms That Are Also Powers, And When You Have Shame, Shame Erodes And Eventually Destroys The Freedoms And Powers.
Some of you here talk and know you are a prisoner of your shame and know that’s why your metaphysics isn’t working the way it is and why your relationship with God-Goddess and all that is and your higher self and your relationship with any of your unseen friends isn’t what it is supposed to be or what you assume is for everybody else.
Others of you are not imprisoned by your shame, but you’re wounded by your Shame. You are still functioning very well, but you’re wounded. You need to know what shame does to you because you see the abuse isn’t happening now, the abandonment; well, I’m a grown-up now, I don’t need parents. The shame I felt for being a defective person, all right, that’s over with now. I don’t have people telling me that now, so you think.
Some very specific things occur and happen. First of all, the shame-based person loses the freedoms, as a human being has certain freedoms that are also power, and when you have shame, Shame Erodes and eventually destroys the freedoms and powers.
1. The first freedom is the freedom to perceive and conceive, the freedom to be creative, and that is taken away when you are shame-based.
2. The second freedom is the freedom to think and to evaluate, and the shame-based person is flawed, defective, and doesn’t have the right to think and doesn’t have a right to evaluate.
3. The third freedom is the freedom to feel, to have passion and compassion, and to survive the shame-based person, they had to shut off their feelings. They had to stop feeling. The shame-based parents stopped feeling long ago, and as they pass the shame on to you, then you stop feeling, too.
4. Fourthly, you have the freedom to want, to need, and to prefer the freedom of choice,e which is denied to the shame-based person. I have no choice; I am flawed, I am defective, I am a mutated mistake.
5. The fifth freedom is imagination, the capacity to imagine and dream yourself and the world healed, that is a freedom and a power denied. This is because to imagine is to Reawaken the wound, to go into a depth meditation. I don’t want to open that again to the person who says I don’t have imagination. I don’t want to hear that creek in the door. Are you awake? I don’t want to see that shadowy figure crawl across the room to crawl in bed with me. I don’t want to feel that again. I don’t want to visualize and feel the beatings, belts, sticks, backhands the broken bones. I don’t want to open that door again and I want to close it down. I don’t want to touch, I don’t want to feel and I definitely don’t want to imagine.
6. The sixth freedom is the freedom to give and receive and it’s a power. The shame-based person simply can’t receive or give love.
7. The seventh freedom is to heal, the freedom to heal yourself and others, the gift and power to heal all you touch shame-based person doesn’t have that ability. Why? Because they feel flawed; if I can’t heal myself, I can’t heal anything else. You see, there are times, and we know it, when we work with people and ask what you desire, and they really don’t have any desire. We know some play games with it, I don’t know. We are talking about when it is really true what do you want in life? Don’t know
You see, the shame-based person isn’t joking or playing cards, etc.; the shame-based person honestly doesn’t know what they want because their wants and freedoms have been taken away.
What do you desire to do with your life, whatever I am supposed to? For the shame-based person, they really mean it. They are not trying and not manipulating with that, they are not trying to be in self-pity to get someone to make their life work for them. They really mean it, they don’t have any desire, it’s been beaten out of them, it’s been abandoned in them and it has been beaten
out of them verbally if not physically.
There are those in the imagination in the meditation who just can’t imagine or feel the energy; for most people, in that sense, it is a game, but there are those who really can’t imagine or feel because of the shame they carry. You can’t imagine because of the shame.
Those freedoms, those gifts, those powers truly have been crushed, not just buried but crushed. They don’t exist anymore. I don’t have much imagination I just have to keep the world around me, that’s about it. I don’t have wants or desires or preferences, I don’t feel, what are you feeling now, I don’t know. It’s evasive shame and they mean it. What do you think? What am I supposed to think? Tell me the rules, tell me what to think and feel, and I’ll think and feel it the best I can. I may think what my father or mother thinks but not mine.
It’s been crushed and beaten out of you by the shame itself.
The first defective shame is you lose your freedoms
#2. The Second Defective Shame Is Shame Damages Your Brain. The Chemistry And The Mechanics.
Shame Really Does Have A Profound Impact, And The Shame-Based Person Has Damage To Their Brain Function, And The Gates Between The Brains Are Closed.
Your brain is divided into basically three components, simply put.
There is the reticular formation which is a set of interconnected nuclei that are located throughout the brainstem. Its function is Simple motor coordination and regulates simple motor functions. Which is the reptile brain inside of you, for that matter, but it is the survivor part of yourself. Shame-based people and those that are severely shame-based become defensive, snappy, quick to throw emotions around, and just angry, even rage, etc. To push others away.
Then there is the limbic brain or limbic system, which is a set of brain structures located on both sides of the thalamus, immediately beneath the medial temporal lobe of the cerebrum primarily in the forebrain. It supports a variety of functions, including the emotional center or feeling area, behavior, and long-term memory. Shame-based people and those that are severely shame-based you lock in shame and feel sorry for yourself. The Self-pity game of victim, martyr, struggler, and blamer.
Then there is the cerebral cortex which is the largest site of neural integration in the central nervous system. The cerebral cortex is a sheet of neural tissue that is outermost to the cerebrum of the mammalian brain. It has up to six layers of nerve cells. It is often referred to as gray matter. It plays a key role in attention, perception, awareness, thought, memory, language, and consciousness. In basic terms, it is the thinking brain. Shame-based people and those that are severely shame-based you get locked in limited complaining thoughts like a broken record, I can’t do it, life sucks, it’s too hard, why me, unfair, jealousy, etc, over and over all day.
These three brains are linked together and are supposed to work together therefore messages coming from the cerebral cortex and frontal lobes to the limbic system to the feeling brain are transferred to the survival brain back to the cerebral cortex, back to the limbic brain, this sort of continues introduction is supposed to call but in a shame-based person full of shame the limbic brain is shut off.
The gates between the brains are closed, and therefore, they can’t feel. I have seen this a thousand times in sessions with shame-based clients who can’t feel or remember anything. The shock, the trauma, the pain, the abuse, the sexual abuse, etc., the shame closes the brain down. Once you heal the shame, the brain opens again, and the client begins to feel and remember.
A Shame-based person either relies entirely on the reptilian brain, to find out how to survive and does it survives now. Over and over again they lock in the survival reptilian part of the brain. Don’t do anything else, don’t rock the boat, don’t change it. This works. Leave me alone.
Or they are totally in the thinking brain the cerebral cortex and want to think or analyze but are too afraid to do, or experience because the gates between the thinking and feeling brain and the survival brain have been shut down due to the intensity of what they have been taught by shame-based parents the abandonment, the abuse, the neglect, the beatings, the wronged, the blame, etc. Behaviors.
Also, your brain releases neuropeptides and other endocrine hormones
Which are vital to the development, function mood, and growth of the brain and body
The secrets to longevity and immortality are or come from the endocrine system and the chemicals it releases as hormones and neuropeptides.
One of those particular chemicals that are released in the brain is endorphins. Endorphins are released to cover pain or numb pain or ease pain or manage pain. There are certain endorphins, and some are released with the expression of happiness, joy, fun, and things of this sort. There are many different kinds. One of the particular endorphins that are released is 48 times more powerful than morphine and when you have pain injected with morphine in the physical world. You have chemicals in your brain that are 48 times more powerful than morphine. Shame-based people and those that are severely shame-based, Chemical analysis shows that they have twice as much of this endorphin in their blood system than the average person. That means the pain is, so severe they have released this potent chemical that is 48 times more powerful than morphine into their body as a normal state of affairs.
On top of it, many shame-based people become drug addicts, alcoholics, and obsessed people. Just realize how intense that pain must be. That a 48 times dosage of morphine doesn’t cut it. On top of the 48 times morphine shame pain, I have to use alcohol or drugs or some sort of obsession addiction. Try to mask this pain.
What Chemicals Is Your Body Releasing To Answer The Shame You Feel?
There are other chemicals and hormones in the brain system. Another neuropeptide that is 200 times more potent than morphine. They have been found in severely suicidal people. Institutionalized often for their suicidal tenancies they are often sincerely not just some dramatic deploy they are really suicidal. That this particular chemical exists grand excess in their body system they are releasing this chemical that is 200 times, more powerful than morphine in order to cut the pain and still on the verge of suicide that is intense pain.
These hormones these neuropeptides that are released in excess damage the function of the body just as if you took morphine every day, you would become addicted to morphine and it would impact your judgment, it would affect your behaviour, it would affect your ability to function in the world, just as those who have become coke heads, or who have become speed freaks, or addicted to certain drugs, etc., are there to end the pain. They don’t function properly.
Well, I don’t take drugs, yes you do if you are shame-based. You are drugged all the time and therefore certain shame-based people find themselves unable to function like regular people which is enforced and forced, I knew it I am flawed and defective. I don’t have the proper judgement, I don’t have the proper hand-eye coordination, I don’t have the proper physical function, it’s chemistry, they are depressed. How would you feel if you took valium or perks every day? You would be depressed. The shame-based person is often depressed, with low-grade chronic depression because of the chemicals in the brain, That their body is releasing to answer the shame.
They can become schizophrenic, they can become paranoid. Shame reinforces because everybody oh don’t be silly, get over it, grow up, just stop it, why are you being paranoid no one is there or trying to get you, don’t be silly. More shame. It affects you chemically.
What it also does is cut off the limbic brain from functioning properly, as well as drugging you and damaging your ability to function in a world as you are under the influence, even before you took a drug or drink you were under the influence from shame.
Shame also sets up tape loops of behaviour where you recreate the shame over and over again, you recreate the incident of shame. If you are abandoned by your father you are continually abandoned by men or father figures. If you were abused by your father you are continually abused by men. You dare someone who abuses you and you wonder what’s wrong with you. It’s a tape loop that has been set up due to the brain function. To recreate the shame. That’s what happens
#3. They are either stuck in child or adolescent or parent personality but they are not themselves. They always respond or react from a child’s tantrum behaviour or teenager’s defensive behaviour or the critical judging parent’s behaviour. They don’t know who they really are and shame blocks them from finding out who they really are. Once you heal your shame on each wave infant, child, teen and adult then you will know who you are. You will No longer react like a child, teenager or critical adult in stressful situations where you are being shamed.
4thly, Also, shame separates you from any Spirituality. You can do the rituals but you are not doing them because it is my right to do them, you are doing them because you don’t want to stick out like a sore thumb, don’t want to be laughed at because you want to be one of the spiritual gang. Therefore, you read the book on how to get in touch with your higher self, or you come to a workshop and do a meditation, you sit under that tree and can’t really feel that tree but pretend you can and put your left hand out and reach halfway around that tree, you kind of do that and we say you will feel your higher hands upon yours, you don’t feel it, you don’t really sense it but you pretend to do. Then you crawl around that tree and you see your higher self there but you’re not going to admit it. We would suggest here you have been cut off by your Shame and then feel even more shame. Because no one is admitting you have been wronged or shamed. That’s what is stopping you.
5thly Also, shame Keeps you from asking for help. The last thing a shameful person is going to say is I need help. why, because they don’t think they deserve it, because they are flawed, defective, not worthy, wrong, bad and there is no help for them anyway. To that sense somewhat of a joke, there are two doorways, one is a door to heaven and the other is a door to a seminar to heaven. All the shame-based people would be lined up for the seminar. I have to learn about this place, I have to fix and heal myself in the first place because I don’t have a right to go through that door to heaven.
The shame-based person doesn’t want to work on shame now, instead wants to take it home and work on it. Then we write down everything we are learning tonight, we didn’t do anything tonight mind you not at all, I’m not going to work on anything tonight in class I’m just going to take it home and do it myself, in my privacy because I don’t want anyone in the class to know that I have shame. Give me a book, that intensely shame-based people read vigorously because they believe somewhere there will be the answer to fix them. They can do it all themselves. Many of you can relate to that more closely than you want to admit.
People play with your shame, they dangle carrots a shame-based person can’t ask for help.
6thly, The shame-based person either has to fix the world or abandon it. They become the super fixers, they are going to fix everybody that is broken. Make everybody else happy, make everybody else successful, make everybody else complete and whole and then maybe they have earned the right of something for themselves. Or else realize the impossibility of that and then they abandon the world with their addictions and obsessions and their fantasies.
7thly, Furthermore, the shame-based person attempts to cover the shame to become shameless and then pass that shame on to somebody else just as it was passed onto them.
Now, How Do Parents Attempt To Be Shameless Basically Two Ways?
I’m Going To Be The Perfect Parent Or I Am Going To Be The Controlling Parent.
One way that we try to be shameless is by being more than human. Take for example The perfect parent I’m going to raise this kid right I’m going to be the parent I never had, I’m going to love this kid, I’m going to take care of this kid, I’m going to treat this kid right so they grow up to be a decent person that doesn’t have shame that I have. I’m going to be the perfect parent, I can do no wrong, I can make no mistakes and I am the perfect parent. If the kid isn’t perfect it’s their fault it wasn’t anything I did, and it wasn’t my behaviour no I am the perfect parent and I did everything right it is their wrong, they are the bad ones.
Or I’ll be the controlling parent. I am going to control this child to bring totally and completely every faucet, every phase, every moment I am going to control this child so that they turn out perfect so they turn outright. I want to know every detail, everything they do, everything that they say, I am going to be right there watching every move. They are not going to get out of my sight. I’ll be a helicopter parent watching every move. I want nothing to go wrong. I am going to control them by picking the school they will go to, pick the friends they will have, the party they go to and do not go to too, the clothes they do and don’t wear, the music they listen to and don’t listen to, the activities they engage in, who they date, when they date, who they see, what social events they involve themself in, I’m going to decide what’s best to be like a cheerleader, captain of the team, school president, to be involved in any event I am going to control their lives entirely so that nothing can go wrong. I’ll be the super mom or super dad or more than human.
Or the righteous parent in that particular regard. The Totally right or totally perfect totally absolutely whatever goes wrong with the world righteous anger, righteousness to put out with whatever goes on in the world, the totally right parent that never makes mistakes, that never does anything wrong, that never says anything wrong, who never in any way has never made an error.
Or else the overachieving parent the mother who is up at 6:30 am to get the kids off to school to be back by 7:30 am so she can clean the house, vacuum, mop the Floors, feed the dogs, get the dinner prepared and our in the refrigerator so that when she comes back later so by 8:30 am she can be off to her activities, whether it’s her hobbies on her day off or work on workdays then have lunch then 2:45 pm she can be there when the kids come home from school who go out to play until about 3:45 pm, then she gets dinner ready, then dinner on the table, then to sew for her kids plays, or help with their homework, then do her own projects and her own self-improvement reading house design and decor books cover to cover, whatever in that regard, learning how to do all these fancy wonderful things so she can be the super-duper over achieving mom, Allways organized for her self, her partner and the kids. Plus she manages to work 8 hours too. Supermom.
Or the super dad as well who in that regard is off to work to two different jobs and plays golf on Sat, builds on Sunday and reads paper till 11 pm at night, and on school days is out in the backyard throwing a football with the son, and is sitting down and bouncing his daughter on his knee as well as taking the kids to any activities that they are in. Back and forth between daughter and son activities like softball, Boy Scouts and Bala. So many activities than going to the second job so he can send them to the proper schools and get them in. It’s an expensive school because it is a good school. Then spend 5k a year to Send them to a fancy school, elementary junior high, boarding school etc, so they can make a decent life for themselves.
The overachieving parent is the shame-based parent who is obsessed with having a perfect life, the perfect everything life. These parents pass this superhuman, this more than human onto their children and you as a child better be a perfect child and make mommy and daddy proud at whatever you do. Don’t disappoint us, don’t let us down, your father is working two jobs to pay for this, don’t blow it, I made your costumes out of the most expensive fabric which is better than anyone else’s, don’t wreck it, be the perfect little girl, be the perfect boy I got you on softball league, I paid extra for you to be better trained. I paid for a better tutor so now be the Star I want. Don’t blow it, I buy you the best of the best don’t blow it. I got you a special tutor now you better be the star of whatever you are in. I know you are 6 years old but I want you to be a quarterback. Whatever don’t be a failure or be picked for the lower spot in the team. Be a perfect child. Please Be a perfect child. Be the Controlled child, don’t act up, don’t act out, don’t do anything unexpected, and don’t do anything mommy and daddy wouldn’t want you to do. Be the overachieving child. I want you to learn multiple languages, and try to learn another before five. I want you to be a math student, solving problems early.
I want you to be successful and do your best so I can show you off and brag to my friends about how amazing you are. You are a measure of me. If I can pounce you out there and perform, it says what good and wonderful parents we must be. You can resight this poem that’s difficult for them, you can speak multiple languages in front of them. I want you to be a perfect child around my friends. This is instilling the child with shame because they are demanding something that can’t be done. No child is going to be perfect, is going to be totally controlled, is going to be righteous and is going to be that overachiever and feel good about themselves.
Many of you are just that. Your parents geared you towards that, you did overachieve and you did behave perfectly, you did everything right and you feel hollow and empty inside and you feel something is really wrong with you.
Anorexia a common phenomenon now more with young girls than boys is an attempt of a child to be more than human, to rise above the very need for food, the very need of a body, to dirty one’s self, to soil one’s self with food, I got to be perfect and therefore exist without food, without excess.
Superhuman parents more than human parents or shame-based parents attempt to be shameless and the way they dump their shame on you.
That’s what happens and that is what shame is all about. Blessings to you ending your cycle of defective shame.
Adult Shame Is Perhaps The Most Devastating Shame Of All And The Most Deceptive And Indeed The Most Insidious Level And The Most Damaging Wave Of Shame That You Can Experience.
With the previous waves, no matter how devastating and disturbing they have been, however much they have rocked your boat or seemed to knock you off course, even at times seemingly hopelessly knocked you off course, none of those previous waves have capsized you. And like those previous waves, however, this fourth wave of shame, adult shame, with its deep pain, can do just that: it can capsize you. It can be a destructive form force of shame.
With each of the previous levels, say it be the pre-verbal shame of infancy, the first break of childhood shame, or the teenage shame of adolescence years, yes, they did mess up your past, and they continued to damage, disturb, and disrupt an ever function of an ever-present child, ever-present infant, ever-present adolescents within.
Those previous waves of Shame in the various waves of karma have accumulated and have devastatingly impacted you. They have robbed you of the precious pieces of your past. To the extent that the past still influences to the extent that even for some of you the past seems to still have control.
Those previous waves can be tremendously disruptive to your present reality. Those previous waves have twisted and distorted the very foundation of your being and, therefore, continue to twist and distort the very function, the very structure of your present, and potentially the very scaffold of your future. But indeed, adult shame with its deadly pain is not something that happened to you; it’s not something disrupted or damaged, or twisted and distorted. It is something that is twisting, is distorting, is disrupting, and is currently doing damage. It is a shame that did not happen in the past but in fact, it is happening right now in your very present and is severely threatening your very future.
With the previous waves of shame, you can assess when it happened and what damage it did. With the current wave, the adult shame, with its deadly deep pain, can only anticipate, can only imagine when it’s going to stick fully and completely, ly, and you can only imagine and you can only anticipate the kind of damage that it is going to do.
As difficult as it has been to work with those previous waves or to work with them currently, you are working with them in retrospect, you are working with them after the fact.
You see you are no longer an infant, you’re no longer a child, you are no longer an adolescent but in fact, you are a grown-up who is working with an infant, working with the child, working with an adolescent and you have the leverage of a grown-up hood, you have the leverage that retrospect gives you. But with adult shame, with this current wave of Shame, this detaining pain of this adult shame. You don’t have the leverage of retrospect, you don’t have the leverage of being beyond it or our side of it.
With the previous waves, you are, in a sense, outside, and as you understand and know from set theory, you can thoroughly understand a set and work with it once you are outside of it. But with adult shame, you are in the midst of the set. Yes, we suppose you could wait till you are outside when you are in the golden year’s wave. We suppose you could wait till then after you have left this life. Then you would be sufficiently outside the set of adult shame and then could look back and retrospect and have the full advantage but then it’s a little too late, isn’t it?
Then you can come back in another lifetime and deal with it at that point but that’s not what you’re after or looking for. That solution is perhaps an easy one but not an adequate one. You are in the midst of the set, you are in the midst of the very shame.
Therefore, it is more complicated, it is more intricate, and indeed more necessary to deal with. But it doesn’t have to be more difficult.
The first clue you are stuck in Adult Shame Is Do you find yourself hopelessly watching successes slip through your fingers? Almost happened, almost had it In the palm of your hand, almost had that big break, and then it evaporated, it unraveled itself before your very eyes. You didn’t do anything you just sat there and watched it unravel, watched the very success rip apart, watched the very thing you created slip through your fingers and crumble to pieces. That’s Adult Shame
Or the very thing you wanted wasn’t the same as you created, but the very thing you wanted almost happened. You almost had it but not. You didn’t panic but you watched it impotently as it slipped through your fingers. You prepare, and you try to make it work, but no matter what you do, plan for, organize, and dedicate your time and energy to, it falls apart right in front of you. You go numb, feel worthless, and Feel success will never happen for you no matter what you do. That’s an Adult shame
Do you find yourself threatened, do you find yourself anxious when success honestly threatens to happen? That’s an adult shame.
You see as long as I can program and work towards them. As long as I can have them as dreams, not reality, as long as I can have them as a goal, not a current function then I’m fine and cool. I got it handled
I can program, meditate, I can process, I can do what nobody has ever seen, and then all of a sudden, the dream is happening, all of a sudden, not just pieces of it, not just little bits of it, but the whole darn thing is starting to happen. I am overwhelmed with anxiety because I am being threatened by the very success for years that I have been seeking. That is Adult Shame
Do you find yourself overwhelmed with envy, jealousy even rage at other people’s success? As much as you tell them oh great, I’m so happy, so glad, I’m so happy for you, that’s wonderful, but raging, angry, jealous, and envious in your being. I am envious of them, what did they do, how come they, why not me, it’s wrong, it’s unfair, God is doing this to me, feeling envious, jealous, even rage at the fact they are succeeding, at the fact they are getting what they want, at the fact that their metaphysics is working despite the smiles, congratulations on the surface and underneath is this tremendous fire brewing. As much as you hate it you can’t help it. That’s an indicator that you are in adult shame.
Do you find yourself, no matter how happy reality is you never really feel happy or refuse to be happy, always finding the yay but, it could be, might be, don’t count your chicken’s eggs before they hatch, do you always insist on being unhappy, always feeling separate, somehow alien, alienated, do you find your self separate with your higher self, soul or God-Goddess. This is Adult Shame
Do you always feel separate, always feel like you just don’t quite fit or belong anywhere? Certainly, all of you may feel you don’t belong somewhere, but you always feel separate.
You hear about other people about how wonderful and how beautiful things are for them but it is never quite there for you. Always vague, always feel somehow separate, always unhappy no matter how good things are. This Is Adult Shame
Do you find yourself hating yourself, running yourself down, ridiculing yourself, without mercy when you make the most inconsequential error? The slightest transgression, no, no, it’s a big major thing, no, it demonstrates my total lack of caring, my total lack of love, my total insincerity, my total stupidity. Ha, it was just a little thing, you messed up here, you messed up there, you forgot this, you didn’t do that right. No, I’m not going to minimize this, I’m not going to shove this under the rug, I was rotten, I was a low life, I was scum human, this is terrible, I should be punished, I should be ostracized From all of society, I should never be given another chance, you should never care and love for me ever again, I should be sent off somewhere, it’s just a little thing. No, don’t minimize it, don’t protect me, don’t patronize me. It’s a major thing. Yes, it’s a little symptom, but it’s a symptom of a huge problem, and I hate myself for it. Do you find yourself doing that that’s an adult shame
Or Do You Over Correct Yourself With Grieves Mistake? At the same time when you do make a grieves error, you defend it, you deny it, you distract yourself, you fill yourself with delusions, you minimize it as no big deal, and you’re making it a mountain when it’s a molehill, it’s not my fault it’s your fault, it’s your reality you’re creating it wasn’t me I didn’t do it, why did you create me doing it, it’s your perpetration, not mine.
The little ones I’ll destroy myself over, but the big ones, oh n,o, not me, I have nothing to do with that. To delude yourself, defend yourself, distract or deny the very error itself when it’s grieving, when it is significant when it is a big one.
Or Do You Panic When Someone Says They Love You Or When Someone Says They Need You, Relys, depends and even counts Upon You? Somebody Loves Me And Needs Me. I Don’t Know What To Do. Oh no, I can’t bear this; oh no, I am being used. That’s what it is; they are using me, no, they need you.
Oh my god, you love me, oh no don’t do that, don’t be rash, no, don’t let’s, back up and work at it.
How much you have sought relationships, how many books you have read, how many workshops you have attended, how many mp3s you have listened to, how many times you have gone about trying to create what I want. I want an intimate relationship, I want someone to love, I want someone to care for, I want someone to love me, then all of a sudden okay, okay I love you, wow but wait a moment, oh my goodness I wasn’t counting on this, moving too quick here, getting too involved, I wasn’t ready for this kind commitment, oh gosh this is happening to fast panic oh my God somebody loves me and I don’t know what to do.
I know how to try to make somebody love me, I know how to program and create somebody to love me but I don’t know what to do if they really do. I’m not prepared to deal with the fact. I’m prepared to look for love but not to feel it. I’m prepared to create a relationship but not to have one.
You hang up on me, you’ll be sorry, you don’t want to do that. I want to prepare to be relied upon I don’t really want to be relied on. I like to prepare and take courses, and I like to study how to become but I am not really ready to be relied upon, be needed and be loved if I find myself panicking when someone says, genuinely says I love you and that I need you and I am relying upon you that’s a very large clue you are in the midst of adult shame. Not infant, childhood but right here, right now adult stuff. Adult shame
Or the world must be fixed before you can apply
Or do you feel you must be fixed, constantly trying to be whole but can never be whole?
Or do you always catch yourself panicking
Or do you Catch yourself always filled with worry
Or are you on the fence of life
Or are you Drenched in your absolute battle of righteousness,
Or do you Seek revenge or do you want to carry it out, I got to get even with rage, spitefulness, and revenge, for they should know better.
Or do you beat yourself up for a silly mistake you have made
Or do you feel unstable
Or do you feel you Never will be or never have been
Or Do you want to run, but freeze and can’t move
Or Do you feel like a Loner or looser, failure of life fully express
These are the clues, that you’re wrapped up in the midst of the here and now, right smack dab in the center of the set, of the pain of adult shame.
Maybe they are not exactly yours, but if these kinds of things are going on with you then you have adult shame.
You need to come to peace with the fact it’s here, not with the content of it, not what you’re doing with it perhaps but you need to come to peace with the fact that it’s here.
If you would like any deep energetic healing around these clues and indicators of Adult Shame, then I would be happy to assist you.
You will learn the specific techniques geared precisely with this kind of a shame to end Your Adult shame completely and conclusively.
What Was Unique In Your Adolescent Years Around Teenage Shame?
What is so unique at those adolescents years? , why are those years more than the preverbal shame, child shame or adult-onset shame? Why are those years, so distinct and unique? Then we need to know, what shame does during those years that is, different than previous or subsequent times?
The uniqueness of Adolescent shame at the time?
The profundity ( deep insight; great depth of knowledge or thought) of the shame itself at Adolescent years?
Recognize and Acknowledge the Difficulty of your shame?
– to recognize and acknowledge it’s Self Perpetuating and just to Shameful to Face,
– to recognize and acknowledge not just what you Think but the Way you Think.
-To recognize and acknowledge you Tended to Ignore the Most Significant area of shame of ALL. Whether it was infancy, child or adolescence,
-or the Intensity was just to Frightening just yet with the gut tightening feeling
To recognize and acknowledge any of those examples or your reasons.
-Or your Own Reasons, Independent of those reasons of why shame is genetically intricate and interwoven so tightly together and too complex for you.
-To recognize and acknowledge what was Unique in your Adolescent years the loneliness, the Withdrawl, the hiding, the avoiding, the wanting to run from everything, the feeling of being flawed and defective, not good enough, stupid, the pressure, scared, or how you withdrew from school pressures to drugs and porn to find freedom, how you cheated your way through, only focussed on escape, not growth,
Some of you as we say, you did not have too much Panic of Growing Up but High school was a Nightmare Trauma . At either way of the spectrum.
Some of your high school maybe it was the Trauma of mom, or no dad, or a drunken good for nothing idiot beating stepfather, that affected you because you were just in your teens,
-Maybe some of you were late bloomers 18,19 may be carried on Into the twenties.
-Maybe the Trauma of high school did not HIT you till you went to college when you thought it would be easier but at college more was expective of you and all maybe you know how to do was run to drugs, cocaine-like I did, to deal with the pain.
You need to define for yourself, which combination has twisted and distorted you and is unique to you, a unique setting for you.
Maybe it was the trauma of school or high school or the war of trauma within?
Maybe it was the panic, maybe it was the panic of growing up, to get good grades, or the rush of hormones, the shift in biology and psychology, sex, sexuality and Identity that really messed you up.
For many of you who have discovered your adult years, your sexuality was different from what the consensus tells you what it ought to be. You knew it then, maybe you would not admit it. Some of you didn’t know it then but many of you did, you knew, you preferred women as a man or woman preferred men or men are supposed to want women and women are supposed to want men, you may have denied it and played the wrong role and performed but new maybe it was the panic around this growing up.
Or maybe the wounding itself that was so profound or maybe it was just the fact of accumulation of shame finally showed its ugly face with the potency and causes of the power of the impact which made you want to run shrink and hide when too many problems came up. Maybe shoplifting, sex, drugs were your escape from the panic, the pain and the ghosts of the past.
Maybe it was the absence of a father all through childhood, the beatings, the denial, the heartache of no dad to only get another ass hole stepdad in your teens that went out of control and snapped on you when tension around the house was too much and how they also resorted to drugs and alcohol to cope with the pain. Maybe you could not talk to stepdads or your mom so you found refuge in drugs, alcohol and sex.
Maybe the constant fighting with mom. Over how she fucked you up. Or how she was stupid for not understanding. Maybe how she stood up in court and told the judge I don’t know what to do with my boy, and you felt abandoned, rejected, belittled, ignored and snap you broke.
the rebelling to show mom she was stupid for all her ass hole stepdads. To show her how much of a fuck-up I am because of how she allows them all to beat me.
Maybe it was the constant grounding for bad so-called behaviour when all you wanted was a listening ear but none were to be found. Only drugs, sex and alcohol.
Maybe the rebelling or the shoplifting for attention with so-called friends or the lack of money at home to feel like you can have nice things too. Maybe to break and enter houses for nice things to feel not poor.
You need to define for yourself, which combination has twisted and distorted you and is unique to you, a unique setting for you.
To Recognize and Acknowledge What Happened in your Shame. In the midst of pain, I searched for help but got a slap on the wrist, denial, rejection, grounding, and then you found drugs and running where your only so-called friend.
Or were you the one that had a fairly good childhood and adolescence then came full force called something else.
Really look and break down your own unique combination of teenage shame. Impacts and Outcomes and once you define you love this part of yourself.
To Adolescent shame accumulate becoming more overt or covert at that time and thought oh glad mom and dad are not doing that anymore. My brother or sister has gone off to college, no more favouritism or my sister has gotten married, more space for me, but now I have a new shame, I’m all alone and I have to deal with it. Is that what it did to you.
What did shame do to you at your Adolescent identity level, did you say I’ll never love again, I’ll give up, it’s too hard, no one cares, why to bother, or that I just have to find the perfect mate, soul mate lover, cosmic partner, or your good enough and nobody else is good enough for me, I’m okay your not okay you need to recognize these things.
Why it’s difficult
The uniqueness of the time
The profundity ( deep insight; great depth of knowledge or thought) of the shame itself
The Panic Of Growing Up And If This Wasn’t Enough At The Same Time They Put You In High School. The Trauma Of High School.
But Those Were The Best Years Of My Life, That’s Pretty Sad If That’s True, It Really Was A Trauma If Those Were The Best Years Of Your Life. Now There Are Many Factors To The Trauma Of High School But Some Of The Most Profound Ones Are Popularity And Academics.
Regardless of what your high school years were like. Some of you were wonderful students, your teacher’s pet and they loved you and you were getting good grades and every college wanted you, you won these awards and you were president of a club and in good standing in a wide variety of activities, etc. Sort of thing.
Others of you were at the other end of the spectrum it was a, really traumatic time, probably not many here reading this but there are those in the world that were at the very bottom of that rank where the high school was a hell hole, a nightmare, the harshest time, waste of time, stupid, didn’t teach anything, picked on, loner, loser, no friends, beaten up, used drugs to escape, failed tests, no food, beaten by parents before school, etc. Most of you may not be able to relate to that because maybe you did not have friends around that group. For some, it was the most tragic trauma but for all, it was a trauma.
Now there are many factors to the trauma of high school but some of the most profound ones and the first one is the trauma of popularity, everybody is the big issue, you got to belong in high school to something or somebody, you got to belong and every high school knows, who are the smart kids but the egg heads, the smart kids but the cool ones, the smart kids and the nerds, smart kids and the geeks, the alright kids, nerds, kids and geeks, the progressive, the retards the ones that dont fit in groups, get picked on groups, the thrasher groups, rap groups, transgender groups, lesbian and gay groups, drug groups Totally out of it, weed pot smoking groups, party groups, musical groups, sports groups, the sexual ones, junior delinquent ones, the ones who will end up in jail, etc., there are so many kinds of groups and in high school, you know every group and you try to belong, I have to belong and I got to belong.
Even those who pride themselves on being a loner, I don’t belong I’m a loner, well I’m a loner too, no we won’t get together after school because we won’t be loners but we can still belong to that group of loners that don’t give a dam about anything and we belong at a distance, but we still belong. No membership, no senior sponsoring, no teacher overlooking but none the less we have our group we are the loners who don’t belong, skip school every day, can’t fit in, can’t find our place, lost, confused, nervous, scared, hopeless, helpless, etc. There is a bunch of them out there and I got to belong, popularity is critical.
Academics even if you’re getting good grades the pressure. You see when you’re in elementary school particularly many of you coming up in that sensing, many in their twenties and thirties you went to progressive schools where they did not grade you, you passed or you didn’t pass, you had problems that needed to be dealt with then all of a sudden you are thrown into high school, your an 8th, 9th, 10th, 11th or 12 th grader and you have grades A and B or C or D and you have a grade average. Teachers talk about grades more in high school you got an A you over there you failed or you are not doing that well and teachers think nothing of it announcing that not all of them but many of them, to announce you did poorly to everyone may force you to do better. That humiliation will do you good. They now know better but nonetheless but many grew up that they didn’t know better. Academics, you see for most of you got decent to good grades you can’t really imagine what’s it like to be someone who failed at everything
Perhaps how to relate it, is you have a job now what would it be like if every morning as soon as you got to your job you were criticized, told what a, fool you were, what a stupid person you are, how you will never amount to anything, you will never be good at your job, your going to get fired by ten o’clock you have been told this 12 times, by noon you have been given dirty looks, laughed, whispered about, you have been criticized, you have been put down, what would you do, you would quit. But you can’t quit high school, not till your sixteen.
For some kids that is what high school was a constant pounding into the pavement and they would study some of those kids, they didn’t study, yes some of them would study all night long and they just didn’t have what it took to fit into that system. Trauma of academics if you did well or not was a trauma.
Another thing that shame does in these adolescents years different than any other time in your life.
Everything Whether The Wonderful Things Or Terrible Things Become Life Consequences Are Much More In High School Than When You Were In Elementary School.
You See Everything Becomes A Life Consequence. There Is The Whole Identity Crisis Of Being A Teenager Of Not Knowing Who You Are And Not Being Able To Talk To Anyone About It. You Had No One To Really Talk To About All The Issues, Crisis, Identity, Life, Demands, Changes, What’s Really Going On With Your Life And You Don’t Know Who You Are.
When You Were A Teenager, How Much Did You Really Talk? Not Performing But Actual Real In Depth Talking.
Teenagers as much noise as they make, they talk less than any other age group. But they are on the phone all the time, that’s performing. Little kids talk. Infants talk they start you can’t shut them up. Teenagers, think about it, when you were a teenager or if you have teenagers. How was school today? Fine. How was….. Fine cool, neat, groovy, okay. They don’t talk, not to you. They perform for each other and they don’t talk to you.
Maybe you will talk to your friends then, no, teenagers perform for their friends they don’t talk to them. Think about it. You performed for your best most intimate friend. You performed for them. You could not talk to them about who am I or I am having an identity crisis and not expect that to be spread all over the school and used against you by them or someone body else. You can not sit down with your best friend and unload all that stuff because what if over the summer they make a new friend, or something happens between you two and everything goes wrong, now they hate you and now they spill the secrets all over. You do not talk to teenage friends you perform for them.
Maybe When you were a teenager you were the vocal ones, talked about the stuff of the day. I saw so and so and they were wearing this, can you believe what they said about so and so, did you see who they were going out with, did you hear the rumour, etc. How do you feel about all that cool, okay, neat, hip, awesome, groovy, far out, fine, etc depending on your age. You didn’t talk and that’s the time you need to talk the most and that’s the time you need to be taking all the time. Because you don’t know who you are and have no way of finding out.
Who do you talk to about identity crisis in high school?
Well, You can’t talk to your parents about what’s going on in your life and how the shame from childhood and the panic of being a teenager is causing an identity crisis. Maybe you can talk to your teachers. If not your teachers then your high school councillor, come on. Maybe there were the one or two high school councillors in the country who were wonderful, but you know what those high school councillors talk about, You want to take that job, fine, finish those courses, fine, then go to college, Fine I will. You are not going to talk to them about I don’t know who I am I have shame and I am going through an identity crisis. What to have it spread all over the school to every teacher or your friends seeing you go into the councillors office. Why do you keep going to the councillors office, oh discussing classes, college, etc?
Also, You See Everything Becomes A Life Consequence. If You Get A Good Grade You Going To Go Onto Greatness If You Get Bad Grades You Will Probably Struggle In Life.
Now there are many factors to the trauma of high school but one of the most profound ones are.
The pressure of life consequences. When you are 6 or 7 or 8 and 10 years old and you get in trouble, throw a spitball, steal someone’s ball, push somebody down, or throw mud in someone’s face it’s considered an adjustment problem. But when you are 16, 17, 18 and you push someone down you are a delinquent person (showing or characterized by a tendency to commit a crime, particularly minor crime.) others say to you and label you no good and you will end up in jail.
When you screw up, don’t do it, mess it up, do it wrong in 4th-grade shame on you, better do better, you don’t want your mommy and daddy to be upset, do you. When you don’t do your homework when you are 16teen or 17teen your are a total disgrace, total failure, disrespecting, procrastinator, not going anywhere in your life, you will never amount to anything, you will end up as a garbage man or in the back as some factory worker for the rest of your life. If you’re lucky.
You see everything becomes a life consequence. If you get a good grade your going to go on to greatness. If you made a touchdown in the last football game you’re going to get a scholarship to your favourite university and become a great pro and make millions of dollars and be on NFL. Everything whether the wonderful things or terrible things become life consequences is much more profound in high school than when you were in elementary school.
You got all A’s in 6th grade big deal, oh you got all A’s in high school your brilliant, you’re going to get an academic scholarship and make your family proud and we don’t have to pay for college. Everything is a life consequence on the top end and the bottom end of high school.
When I was in elementary I was held back in grade two, my teachers and parents organized a special program for me to learn, extra reading classes, read in front of the class, extra spelling and math tutors, etc., but
When I was in high school I was very ashamed of my low grades and what others thought and felt, especially when I told them I skipped school all the time, my grades were low and I dropped out in grade 10, then after a while, I homeschooled myself and then failed grade 10 and then I had to go to summer school to catch up. Others including friends, family, teachers and others say you better get your act together, what are you not almost 19 and have not graduated yet, you’re too close to the end of high school to play around, you will end up like them working a physical labour job and hurt yourself, you will fail if you don’t get down and study, you will be on welfare and go nowhere, etc. The shame around this from others and yourself cripple you. I reached a point with teen shame that I am a failure, I am not going to amount to anything, I will be a pub cook washing dishes my whole life, I’ll be just like my dad a loser, I’ll end up on welfare, I knew I could not do it, I knew I should not have tried, etc. Then I looked for the easy quick fix to just get by.
The Deep Wounding Of The Soul Happens During The Adolescents Years With All The Stresses, Panics, Pain And Demands Of Being A Teenager And Growing Up.
For some of us We Tend To Sugar Coat The Facts By Saying High School Years Where The Greatest Of Years Oh I Wish I Was A Teenager Again.
You get shut down as a teenager. Shame was the wounding but separate from that you get shut down and you crashed and burned. This is what makes these years so incredibly impactful. Most of the bad stuff of teenage years is ignored because most adults want to forget their teenage years. They want to forget the panic, they want to forget the trauma, they want to forget pain, they want to forget the demands, they want to forget the wounding, they want to forget the potent energy around teenage years. However, they do want to Remember that game we did, how our team won the tournament, remember that time of the slumber party, remember the graduation party, remember the skipping class and smoking weed, remember our new car, summer nights, swimming in the ocean, camping, etc, oh teenagers years was the best, I only want to remember only the fun times but they are doing is sugar-coating the facts by saying high school years were the greatest of years. The phrase, Those Adolescent Years I wish I was a kid again.
All this goes on and you forget.
Any of you who have teenagers right now they are going through it now and you will roll your eyes and wonder why they can’t act like you. They are probably acting just like you when you were there too. I never did that behaviour, sure you did, you just forgot. Different form different context but the same stuff. But you forget.
When You Hit Puberty Then All Of A Sudden Whether You Wanted Too Or Not You knew Smak I’m Growing Up.
Every Teenager Regardless Of How Wonderful Or Horrible The Home Was Every Teenager Goes Through The Panic Of Growing Up And The Uncertainty Or Rather The Instability Or Chaos Of Growing Up.
Now to compound this potent impactful shame from childhood to teenager. Teenagers have to deal with the panic of growing up, some may say I could hardly wait to grow up, since I was a child I could hardly wait to grow up, drive, get out of the house and be on my own. Oh, what freedom. When I was 11 to 12 preteen age I used to stay up late grinding my teeth waiting to grow up to move out on my own and get out of this hell hole that’s called home. At 13 to 14, 12 was never good enough but 13 teen oh boy I am almost there, now 16 teen even closer. I can get out of here, never have to go to bed early, I can eat whatever I want, stay up late and drink and get drunk, I can drive, go see who I want, have over who I want, we can have sleepovers all the time. But by the time your 18 you don’t care, none the less you can hardly wait to get out of the house when you’re growing up.
Others of you never wanted to grow up you wanted to be a kid forever, sit on mommies lap, kiss, cuddle or stay very close to daddy and stay a baby or child forever playing, drawing, running, hid and seek. Often times we get jealous of other younger siblings, we wanted to stay young forever as Peter pan to fly off to never-never land where you don’t have to grow up. Where the biggest problem is the tick-tocking alligator and captain hook, that’s it. Life will just be a wonderful fairy tale.
Then comes puberty and All of a sudden hair on your face, underarms, chest and belly and your penis growing or your developing breasts and you start to have that thing called the time of month or moon time. Your menstruation. Names attached to it, by friends, society, other males and even my mother’s.
Then all of a sudden whether you wanted to or not you knew smak dad I’m growing up and whether it called your bluff or threatened your fantasy it was a panic. We don’t care if you were eager to grow up and get out of the home at age 14 or whether at 16 still pretending you were six there is the panic of growing up that impacted each of you. There is chaos.
Every teenager regardless of how wonderful or horrible the home was every teenager goes through the panic of growing up and the uncertainty or rather the instability or chaos is handled with absolute beliefs and attitudes.
Teenagers at a constant state of instability and chaos and create stability with absolute. Listen to teenagers everything is black and white there are no greys there are no alternatives, there is no consideration, everything is good or bad or right or wrong, mine yours everything is black and white and Nothing is in between and they do this not because they are stupid, not because they are teenagers because they are trying to respond to the instability. Everything is up in the air if they can have some foundation of absolute belief. All men are and all boys are, all girls are all women are, all parents are, all Canadians are, all democratic are, all liberals are, etc., there is never variants of grey. Absolute belief and attitude and they do that in order to create stability and to bring an end to the chaos.
The uncertainty and the chaos have made certain with judgments. Probably the most judgmental people are adolescence. They are absolute and they have no sense around those judgments. They are bad they should die. They good they should live. This is my best of the best friend, most intelligent, most wonderful, most fantastic then till the next day then my best friend is the most terrible, disgusting stupid, never going to amount to anything, etc. And now you over there is my new best friend, you are the most wonderful, greatest, fantastic and I am even greater than that because I am your friend, then till Tom when you over there will be my best friend.
These absolute judgments about everything. The teenagers handle the chaos and discomfort they make it comfortable with life decisions. You and many of you made these decisions, you forget but you made them.
Teenagers Create Absolutes To Create Comfort Or Stability And Certainty In A Totally Chaotic World.
Some Of You As Infants Had A Level Of Shame That Did Chemical Alterations In Your Brain.
WhenTeenagers have shame they make the absolute the life choice, it doesn’t matter what I do now I got it set out there, that makes it comfortable. These absolute beliefs, absolute thoughts and feelings, absolute life decisions, I’ll never be happy again, I’ll never amount to anything, I’ll never be your friend again, You know if you could not go to the school dance sat night you were going to die if you could not go, move to the next town, I mine as well never be happy again, I’ll never have friends again, I’ll never trust anybody again, I’ll never love again, I’ll never have anybody love a matter a fact ill never have a boyfriend or girlfriend again. Absolutes to create comforts or stability and certainty in a totally chaotic world.
Adolescents do this all the time that’s part of the panic of growing up and the pressures around school and life, family, etc. The panic that hits every one of them regardless of every one of you, regardless of the facts and figures that surrounded it.
Also, part of this panic of growing up comes with this very on slot of hormones, with this on slot of hormones What happens when you suffer that kind of pain of being abused or being abandoned or being taught in that infant time when at that time you are wronged, the pain is such that your brain releases endorphins, endorphins are like morphine. The brain releases endorphins, the problem is at that time your brain is, too fragile, your brain is still too new, your neural connections as we will are still too young. That all of a sudden you overdose with endorphins it can burn out in a certain sense parts of your neural structure, parts of the nerve endings, it can alter the patterns of chemistry in your brain.
Now you know if you take morphine, a little bit of it can kill the pain if you overdose it can kill you. You know anyone who has attempted hallucinating drugs a little bit can make you high and feel terrific and fantastic but if you took a whole bunch of you it could kill you. Well, the same happens naturally in the brain. When you release endorphins like you do when you laugh or eat chocolate, that you do when you feel happy, when you smile, when you stimulate your thymus it releases endorphins and that makes you feel good but if you overload it can make you feel bad.
A type of beta-endorphin that is 200 more times powerful than morphine and is found among suicidal patients, not just saying it to have mom’s care but genuine suicidal people have this Beta-Endorphin that is 200 times more powerful than morphine. Can you imagine the kind or amount of pain they must have been in to have or force their body to release that kind of endorphin?
Also, serotonin is Triggered by Tryptophan. Tryptophan in the right amounts assists infants with development. Serotonin assists with anxiety keep you calm, cool and collective when you’re under fire. But in that particular sense, it also can reversely impact the body and when there is overload serotonin it can do neuronal damage and never-ending damage.
Some of you as infants had a level of shame that did chemical alterations in your brain. Tik Tok the biological clock moves through childhood, then you come to puberty then all of a sudden the hormones open flood the body and the chemistry floods the body and this is a lot of reasons why some teenagers are genuinely suicidal, they are not just making it up, they are not just being dramatic, some are, yes. But some are legitimately suicidal because all of a sudden the body is flooded with a beta-Endorphin (en-dog-en-ous opioid neuropeptide and peptide hormone that is produced in certain neurons within the central nervous system and per-iph-er-al nervous system.), that is 200 more powerful than morphine and they see no reason to live.
Yes, it is mixed up with their absolute judgments and their absolutes of thoughts and feelings and their absolutes of life’s decisions and yes they are overdramatic and all of that. But some of them under it are genuinely suicidal or emotionally disturbed. The Parent may say, They were fine I don’t know what happened to them they were such a beautiful little baby, they were such an adorable little child, they were such a well-behaved child, now they have turned into some sort of psychological monster, it may be chemical and it may be shame.
Those of you who remember and look back with a certain embarrassment and a certain sense of your own shame at your adolescents years how could I have been like that, it well could have been the shame that produced a chemical on slot along with hormonal on slot that produced that behaviour.
If You Do Not Heal Your Shame Before First Break Puberty Your Chemistry, Brain And Total Development Of Body Will Be A Shame-Based Body And Brain.
Heal Your Shame And You Boost Your Immune System.
During your childhood the thalamus gland and hypothalamus gland within the brain, the governors of the brain and the body, the brain within the brain, to grow and develop the body. The thalamus gland is in charge of growing the body not linear not logically but instead exponentially.
All those out there and they look at metaphysics snub it because it’s not linear and it’s not logical and thank God your not. If you grew logically you would be a mess. How do you grow a body logically, do you start with the bones, realize the mess your bones become grown-up bones without the muscles or the veins or skin. All of a sudden you have this skeleton sticking out of the bottom of your foot, oh the baby is growing logically. In a few years, the skin and muscle will catch up with the bones. Logically do we start left foot or right foot. Which side of the body, logical. Now when you’re going to grow a face, do you grow an eyeball first, no that is silly, what about the socket, lean forward and the eye would fall out. Then there are the veins that have to grow, the arteries that have to grow. It all has to be done together in symphony, that’s not logical. That’s not linear that’s exponential.
The thalamus gland is the one that oversees all of that. When you reach your teenage years what’s happening, well for the most part you have your adult stature yes you may gain or reduce weight. In several years if you get osteoporosis you may shrink but beyond that, you pretty much have your body structure when you hit those adolescent years.
What happens in that sensing the elegance of the system, the thalamus doesn’t tier it switches its job function to not growing the body but instead protecting the body, its in charge of the immune system. If this, endocrine system is adversely affected by shame it can alter the growing and developing pattern. More and more distinctive it can alter the health pattern.
That’s where you notice a bunch of adolescence become sick during those adolescent years. They seem to be healthy as a kid, they were healthy as an ox, they could eat anything and do anything, they ate dirt, they ate worms, they picked up gum on the bottom of chairs, etc. But then you hit those teenage years and the slightest wind you got the cold you have the flu, you got this, you got that. It’s because they are interacting with someone else sick, no it’s because shame has penetrated the immune system. Because it is a chemical response in the body.
That’s how invasive shame can be. Some people become sickly in those adolescents years and never really recover.
Heal your shame and you boost your immune system.
Some of you can look back and say when I was 17 teen,that’s when and never did really heal and I have always been weak, etc. Ever since absolutely.
Since Shame Is So Self-perpetuating And Because It Is So Painful For Some The Shame Produces Its Own Shame.
Shame Not Only Impacts What You Think And Feel It Also Impacts For Some Of You The Way You Think And The Way You Feel.
Shame is one of those topics where others will say that does not apply to me, I’ll just keep going. I can’t learn anything about that topic, it wouldn’t help at all. Or they came to one shame, they may learn about the preverbal shame of infancy but when it came to terrible twos of childhood, or even teen shame no no no, that doesn’t apply to me.
Since Shame is so self-perpetuating and because it is so painful for some the shame produces its own shame, therefore, makes for the intricacy and difficulty of a perplexing subject, that may be a difficulty for some of you reading this. Therefore, we congratulate you on your courage to come and read and do the work even though shame is so very painful too.
For others of you, the reason may deal with the particular uniqueness of the debility or weakness of shame. Shame does impact you emotionally but you knew that but it also impacts you physically, often something you don’t know or readily forget.
Shame produces a chemical response in the brain. Shame alters the function of the endocrine system, alters the function of the nervous system, it alters the communication system, the network of communication between the portions of the brain, therefore in the function of the body. Shame Can impact you physiologically, alter your very own growth patterns. But as well as impacting you emotionally and physically, shame not only impacts what you think and feel it also impacts for some of you the way you think and the way you feel. The way you go about doing that of thinking and feeling.
It’s not just the thoughts or feelings that you have that come up it’s what you do with them, how you respond to them, how you react to them that was also impacted by the very shame its self. That function of debility may be more crippling to you than say others, more crippling to you in certain other other limitations in your reality that you may experience within that reality.
Also, the accumulation of shame for many becomes internalized, internalized is a lovely psychological term but what it means is that you become the source. You see some of you had Shame from the preverbal shame, into the childhood and into the adolescent years and even beyond but it is accumulating like a snowball getting larger and larger and it has to go somewhere. So you internalize both the offence and the offender.
It’s not that you forgot what happened to you or you forget who did it in some psychological ploy of numbing yourself out you even go beyond that where you become the offender, you are the source of your shame and you become the perpetrator of the offence.
So when you start looking to your childhood, infancy, even adolescent years you can’t seem to find what’s there because you are the offender and you are perpetuating the offence. It is very difficult for example for a person that is abusing or abandoned in a shame-producing way, shame-based way, to face, confront or deal with their own shame when they are now acting it out and now passing it on when they are their own offender.
There are a few of you here who have that. It may be why it’s so perplexing and complexing for you to deal with.
Why Is Your shame Personally And Particularly So Difficult To Work With.
What Is Important For You Is To Know Why Is Shame, The Generic Concept So Difficult To Work With.
In order to deal with this uniqueness of shame basically, there are things we must accomplish together.
it is important for you is to know why shame, the class or group or generic concept is more difficult to work with. One needs to look at, not remember a list of however many but you know it is too painful for you. The person next to you may not be too painful for them, but for you it is.
Or is it because of the debility not only physical weakness it is mental, emotional and physical but not only what you think and feel but the way you think and feel?
Or perhaps for you, it has accumulated and whatever way you have become your own offender who does something wrong or causes problems. Having internalized the shame since there was nowhere else to put it
Or you did focus on one wave, Ethier infant, child, teen or adult shame and succeed beautifully and ended up sabotaging with the other waves,
You need to know what your reason is for why shame is so difficult. All of them, no it’s not. One more than the other yet there may be some we have not mentioned. We offer these as, examples but from those examples a catalyst to understand why your shame is for you personally and particularly so difficult to work with.
Beyond that what is so unique at those adolescents years? , why are those years more than the preverbal shame, child shame or adult-onset shame? Why are those years, so distinct and unique? Then we need to know, what shame does during those years that is, different than previous or subsequent times?
You see that is important to understand, it’s not just shaming, shame, Shame, no it is different, each wave is different. Shame occurs during these sets of years and it happens in this unique way during those years that is, what makes shame so bloody difficult. But if you can understand that and unravel that then it can be an incredibly easy deal with.
After those years when you become an adult you straightened out became a worthwhile person again and managed to fix up the mess you made to compensate for your defect, your flaw
That is the trauma and shame that comes with high school.
The trauma of high school plus the trauma of growing up. The shame has been accumulating or begins.
This time around teenage years is so potent, so powerful, so traumatic, so wounding, so much pressure and so many demands.
Your Soul Needs To Express His Her Voice, And By Facing Your Shadow Selves, You Give Voice To Your Soul.
Give voice to Your Soul. Your Soul Says Feel With Your Inner Senses Not Think And You Will Hear And Feel Your Soul Speak.
Giving voice to your soul First of all, it can bring you all kinds of success and all kinds of spiritual power, gifts, and Abilities but even more fulfillment, purpose, and meaning. With that power is valuable and meaningful. Where those successes are enriching, fulfilling, and valuable in themselves.
When you give voice to your soul your life can be filled slowly and more rapidly with more and more enchanted moments and more and more cherished moments. Your life can be filled with all kinds of magic, power, and miracles. Not too much as to scare you. Just a little bit more than a lite but more than that. As you are willing to receive.
As you give voice to your soul, your soul can give you depth, and the character that struggle used to provide. Yes, those who have known great struggle have developed great depth and great character. They have used it and some who have known struggle have Been beaten by it. But those such as your selves who know it have developed character, have developed depth, but your soul-given voice can do the same thing.
Giving voice to your soul can open you up to the multi-emotional mentality of who you are. To the full range, to the more of range to the depth of your emotions. So yes, you may feel greater pain when you are in pain but you also feel greater joy and more frequent joy when you are there. It will give you a multi-dimensional to the many faces. In this physical realm, you are dealing with. Will give you that sense that you can grow with the thrill of it. Not because you have to or be stuck up against the wall but because it is the eleventh hour, and you better come out swinging. But instead, it’s thrilling and exciting.
You see, your soul does speak. Your soul speaks in old forms and new forms, and Your soul speaks the highest truth.
Your soul speaks through imagination, creativity is the soul’s food and passion is the life force of the soul. Ignite your imagination, passion, and life force, and you will speak to your soul. So be it.
When the pain or trauma comes to the surface and you can’t see the bright side your soul sits with you in your shadow light. Escape from the recesses you are hiding in and instead Turn to your soul’s smiling eyes, as your soul lifts you into love.
We Deepen our spiritual journey by diving into the womb of your shadow and dancing with your shadow and soul into a deeper communication.
When the wound comes and you come crashing down in pain, your soul brings to you the shadow, the dark light, the part of you that needs your love to heal. Dive now into the womb of your shadow and call on defining moments of love to mend the ghosts of the past.
Your Soul Draws you into the womb of the shadow, where you can be born in a new form.
I am the subconscious, I am the remains, I am the wound, I am the pain, I am the trauma and I will no longer run from you. Let it embrace you and transform your pain into love. Dive now into your shadow and love your pain. Stretch your soul to find your potential strength.
Even though you may not be clear on the message your soul gives, you know you will be. Give voice to your soul by not hiding in the cracks, crevices, and pain of your soul but instead rising with your soul through the power of your voice.
Within your soul is the book of Evolution and all your innate Knowledge, tap into this wisdom and ascend brothers and sisters. Your soul is urging you to unfold in this lifetime.
The soul changes the world through tenderness.
When working with the soul, some people will get it instantly, and others will get it over some time. All is well.
What if I told you there is a specific Sirian formula to activate and Merge with your soul. There are specific times when our soul comes to us through our lives; if we heal and then gather these charges and put them together, we generate enough power to bring forth your loving soul.
If you would like to merge with Your Soul Power and Give Voice To Your Soul then please contact Chris for a private Healing Activation Session.
I don’t have to do this but it’s fun, it’s thrilling and exciting. I want to grow and become more. No one is forcing you; your reality isn’t demanding it. There are no more shouts and even whispers, but I still want to grow just for the thrill of it.
Reawaken your soul’s voice, and you will speak and write infinite, nonstop wisdom.
Give voice to your soul.
Look Through the eyes of your Soul and feel the love your soul has for you.
Such a Blessing to connect with you all during this Grand Awakening.
Let’s Awaken The Mystery Of Your Soul So You Can Work Your High Magic Here.
Have You Experienced Or faced The Lost Depth Of Your Soul?
You Will Find All Kinds Of, Radiance, Resonance, Mystery And Magic In The Lost Depth Of Soul.
How very exciting indeed.
You have so much of the information and so much of it now is fitting together like it hasn’t before, making sense in ways that you would never even dream of but there are still mudding pieces, still the quandary leading to quagmire.
It is through this reclamation and awakening of your soul that often you can find that one puzzle piece, maybe 2 or 3 that opens all of a sudden in your mosaic and fits it together perhaps ineffable, so sacred with emotions and energy that you just can’t describe it but non the less fitting it together.
This Reclamation and this Awakening of your Soul can also hold a resonance and hold a radiance of resonance that in its very mysterious way and its very mystical way, truly in a very magical ineffable way. A radiance of resonance that can allow you to truly awaken and not just nudge it, not just cause it to stir, to rumble a bit and then fall back asleep but to truly awaken this high magician inside of you so you can work the high magic without ever knowing fully why.
It is this radiance and resonance that can give you that direction and that guidance to truly craft your life, not just another life, a different one than your mother and father or the authorities have given you. Whoever those authorities might be that can answer that question can it be done? That can answer the question is this life I am crafting is it really mine? Can help you maneuver through so as to not humiliate or embarrass yourself and or hurt another. To find a life that regardless of your own sense of not being good enough is significantly enough.
This radiance of resonance can be found not in the depth of the soul but in the Lost Depth Of The Soul.
It is within this depth, The Lost Depth Of Soul And In The Awakening Of Spirit that you can find almost everything Perhaps the combustion of your passion.
It is with the lost depth of soul that Can also be the very resonance that you need to fully be done with the addictive responses and the addictive nature of your past that you can use to truly bust free of your need to control and once free of that need, then to change the behaviours and to change the actions seems almost automatic busting free of that need.
Divine ones on this reclamation and awakening not only can it hold the missing puzzle pieces and hold this radiance of resonance it can also hold the power of your will. The fuel that can allow you to bust free of more than control but to bust free of a system and to bust free of a paradigm of reality creation.
As we mentioned before for many years now we have been talking of a system of consciously creating your own reality. Encouraging you to not swallow the whole pill you’ll choke on it put to take pieces, little bites and then bigger bites, chew it well and then digest it. Learn how to be conscious of this area and then that area and then a little more and then a little more. Working for years with some of you and shorter times for others, with a system, with a paradigm that much of your consensus rails at and that much of your consensus can get violent about Consciously creating your own reality and all the while telling you that your Spirituality is not about building a system but about busting them and moving beyond systems. Many years of building a system and then telling you not to build it and to reach beyond it. Suggesting from time to time there will be a time when you realize as much as you know of creating your own reality there is something more there is another system beyond it that this too has become a system, this has become a paradigm and if you stay too long it can become a burden. That time is approaching fast to bust free of the system and to bust free of the paradigm of reality creation that some of you have just now become familiar with. Just now you finally become comfortable, finally at peace with creating your own reality can I now rest for a decade, no we are often running. Busting system to free your systems, to free your paradigms.
It is within this depth, the lost depth of soul and in the awakening of spirit that you can find perhaps the combustion of your passion, that you can find what you need even though it may not have nifty labels to capitulate you beyond.
There are hurdles divine ones, not necessarily resistance, or obstacles for that matter but hurdles that each of you overcome. Learn how to glide over the clouds of a storm like an eagle so that you can reach not just the depth of soul but the lost depth of soul. Not just a retrieved but an awakened spirit.
What Hurdles in your life have you labelled as Obstacles and Resistance?
Now hurdles to this reclamation, hurdles to this awakening can be so cumbersome as it appears to function as obstacles and resistance but even so, hurdles are something you need to climb over.
Obstacles, resistance, and the reasons why you won’t do it and that is important. There is nothing more humiliating than charging out there and tripping over your own shoelaces.
We are not going to look at resistance or obstacles but more of what we want to talk about is what might be better called hurdles. Now to some that may seem the same but they are different you see. Now hurdles to this reclamation, hurdles to this awakening can be so cumbersome as they appear to function as obstacles and resistance but even so, hurdles are something you need to climb over. You see as you can become aware of, not obstacles, not resistance, the spare time you don’t have obstacles and resistance and you don’t that’s why you are here. If you had obstacles and resistance, not that everybody who doesn’t have them wouldn’t be here but you do have hurdles.
The idea is to learn to glide over them, to create a certain resonance, a certain cadence perhaps, a certain rhythm where as you move you can glide over the hurdle and with the proper timing move over them with a certain grace, with a certain dignity, like birds in flight, moving as tho they were not there. The only way you can do that in fact is to know precisely where they are. Don’t you see? So that you know from this hurdle to that hurdle I have three steps and then between this step and that step there are eight more little steps. So I need to know what my hurdles are not because they are there to stop me but so my journey can be more elegant and can be more fruitful and it can be more filled with excellence.
Now we suggest these Seven Hurdles to the Lost Depth Of Soul.
1. The first Hurdle is You live in a world that denies the soul and leaves little room for a true sense of one’s Spirituality.
2. The second hurdle is Symbiotic guilt
3. The third hurdle is anxiety,
4. The fourth hurdle is mystical
5. The fifth hurdle is Dread
6. The sixth hurdle Indebtedness To Self
7. The seventh hurdle is the Lost passion for life
Well at first glance you might go ha this lost depth of soul seems pretty impossible and that is why so few find the lost depth of their soul.
That is why even those including yourself who have awakened their soul and spirit who have given voice to your soul, who have discovered certain depth of your soul, who have explored the various faces of your soul still have a lost depth to their soul.
You see when you’re willing to glide over the hurdles some are going to be very easy for some of you because of the work you have done and others may still need to do some healing and work maybe around the hurdle of anxiety, or the hurdle of guilt, or the particular hurdle of giving Voice to your soul and others may need to do some work with the mystical hurdle to let it be alright that things you don’t understand, that the things that don’t make sense, the things that don’t fit neatly into your logic and reason, to let that be alright that if doesn’t fit nicely in either or singular supremacy conflicting battling world. For some, it will be bang boom very easily through the first four and then the last three dread, Indebtedness To Self and a loss of passion that Ned’s to be reactivated or you already have, but to activate that passion for life.
As you can understand where the hurdles are then when you come to them you can move through them. Because you see once you do even the first time people get through all seven hurdles, even if you stumble over some, even if you fall down and get up again, even if you knock over the hurdle itself you do not have to be perfect you just have to get there.
Once you experience that lost depth of soul truths are revealed, the truths you have been looking for and truths you never knew were there, it opens you to truth, your truth. It generates commitment, a sense of authenticity that takes on a whole new meaning, clarity of conviction, courage, perseverance of coherence and acceptance. It releases the paradox and the confusion and it notches your resonance giving you a radiance of a resonance that is phenomenal. It releases the dread, it releases the Indebtedness if you face it and overcome it then it can be healed but if you refuse it and run away from it how can it be healed? Heal that I don’t even know okay there are places for that but with something as significant as dread and indebtedness because it’s there in every one of you. This can be released as can your passion for life, positively released.
It can generate triumph of your dreams and that dream and it can open you not only to truths but to that chain reaction called self transcendence.
When you begin to craft a life. Anticipated fears all of a sudden can become very real. Will I craft the right life this time? Can it really be done? Can I do it what if I make mistakes humiliating myself or hurting those around me, where will it lead when will it end? What if the life I crafted is ever so real ever so much and is Judy like me not good enough? Once you begin crafting your own life what’s next? What lies beyond?
So much of what life is, for so many of you. Even for you so much of your metaphysic and Spirituality is all about some sort of continuous confrontation or encounter with the past. With its addictive nature with your addictive responses to it. So much of what life is, so much of metaphysics and Spirituality that you have explored for however long or short of time has been about dealing with that past. So much of your identity is defined by, so many of your drives are fueled by the past. Once you let go once it has let go of you and once you let go who are you, What Motivates you, what makes you run, and where are you going? What’s next? What Lys beyond?
It is this reclamation of the lost depth of soul, it is this awakening of spirit that In so many ways is where you are going to find that something more that doesn’t have a nifty label, that doesn’t have a name because you see in the reclamation and awakening you can find that would perhaps best be described as the missing puzzle pieces in the mosaic of your change and your growth and of your evolution.
This reclamation and this awakening can be so pivotal in the work that you do and so important in propelling you into the work in which you will be doing.
You see the lost depth of soul is different than giving Voice to your soul. Tending your soul, finding your soul’s path and all of that is essential, beautiful, wonderful and has been so incredibly important to so many of you but entering the lost depth of soul is different. Even when you have a depth of soul it is different than the lost depth of soul.
If you are interested in a one-on-one in depth healing session to unlock the Lost Depth Of Soul then please contact me.
Let’s awaken your empowerment and reignite the fire energy of your soul’s passion within.
A very specific combustion that transforms the fear, anxiety, doubt, any emotion you are stuck in, etc., of the unknown to illuminating perception and inner guidance with greater meaning and significance and thus with greater value to you. Out of this potentially profound combustion, sparked not by struggle, not by suffering but instead igniting by the friction of chaos and the friction of the unknown.
You can garner the permission to Awaken your passion with authority, empowered, passions awaken and you can begin to hear your soul’s call to adventure, empowered and listening and you can also begin to respond to that call.
Deep within each of you, many passions are waiting to entice, waiting to entreat you to new depths and new heights.
Many passions can reveal hidden pathways to new depths of being and open unexplored Gateways to new heights, wondrous magic, and enticing new mysticism. A magic and a mysticism with which you can transform, which you can transcend, which you can renew, revitalize, and heal as never before.
Passions awaken, it is a cornerstone of which can be your new definition of empowerment, what can be your new arena of the permission and the authority to act, to create, to manifest in your reality and your worlds reality.
This is your year of empowerment, we say this often yes but that is not an arbitrary determination. It is the year of empowerment and empowerment is the next step in the unfolding of the most monumental Decade in the history of humankind upon your planet. We have said that for so many years now its meaning can get lost in the familiarity. This is the most monumental Decade of any decade that has ever been in human existence on earth. This decade more rapidly than you know will be drawing to a close sooner than you think. To this the most monumental. This is a year of empowerment because empowerment is the next step.
During our private sessions we are going to Initiate and we are going to set In motion An Esoteric Alchemy that can produce A very precise combustion of Energy that can Transform Lost Or Underutilized Passions Into The Elegant Creativity Of Your Unique Energetic Passions.
Or maybe you don’t know what to do with your passion, I have a substitute, I am misdirecting it or I don’t understand it, and therefore even though my passion may be found I am underutilizing it or lost it all together.
Your passion is chiseled lovingly carved by your soul, fired, and cured enthusiastically by spirit. Your passion is a masterful artistry of boundless love, bridled enthusiasm, insatiable yearning, and an unending longing but it is waiting to be revealed.
If you are interested in this specific healing technique to Awaken Your Soul’s Passion Then Please feel free to contact me.
Finding The Gateway To The Etheric Realm To Awaken The Masterful Magician.
It’s such a pleasure to have this opportunity to work with you
We are here today to find the gateway to the Etheric realm for it is upon the Etheric realm that you can discover crises that have not yet begun or manifested into your reality and resolve them so they need not manifest in your physical world. There you can discover the entanglements, obstacles, blockages, hooks, hurdles, etc, by any name you give them and untangle and dissolve them long before they would otherwise come into your world with self-sabotaging or self-punishing behaviour, patterns and realities.
Thereupon the Etheric realm is where healing can take place as it never has before. There where can discover Futures long before they manifest, long before they could even possibly show up in your reality and benefit from the bounty and change.
There is just so much magic to be had there in the Etheric realm, where everything becomes real before it manifests here in your illusion. Where change yes can occur, where change can be truly exponential.
You can discover hidden doors that once opened reveal vast and mighty worlds, more intriguing, more beautiful and more wondrous than has ever been. You can retrieve and revitalize enough power of your very personal and of your very private power. To be able to open and move through those hidden doors, to reveal a magic as never before. To Produce, to begin for those who continue with us to begin also exponential change.
Many of you here feel you already know the magician, that you already awakened this part of you. Some of you reason that, since you are aware of that, have come to know and have worked with a Magician. A Magician filled with wonder and awe and with an innocent child filled with such wonder, such aww, filled with such adventure, creativity, such imagination a magician overflowing with laughter and joy. Yes, you remember glimmers and glimpses of this magic magician within that once was yes. The Magician was pragmatically replaced with a defective child who had to survive, who had to be secure, who had to find a sense of belonging that is true but in the foray of your metaphysics and your spiritual search you have rediscovered this one and you have embraced this one, this special magician within lost so long ago and therefore in many ways feel you already know and already awakened a magician inside of you.
We begin that journey of waking the magician. You see when you awaken the magician, the true, the real, the high magician so much can change.
1. The high magician first of all can lead you through the residue of the past. So long we have talked about the past is coming to an end, the history is ending, not as some statement of hyperberbaly but as a fact that they are gripping hold of the past, is relinquishing, is letting go and more and more the influence not the control, the influence of the future is what is creating your reality but even so there is habit, even so there is residue, even so there are those chunks, tangling pieces of the past that still tenaciously hang on that you still wrap around your ankles and say look I can’t go any further.
It is the high magician that can lead you through the residue so you don’t have to go back to the drawing board, you don’t have to go back to square one and start all over again, hmm let me see let me talk to a child, let me see what an adolescent wants, etc., a high magician can lead you through this residue and also can guide you beyond the paradox and confusion that is so much a part of present and future that is yet unfolding.
This high magician can lead you and can guide you in these ways, in this fashion but more than that.
2. Secondly the high Magician, Real And True Magician can open you to your own authenticity, your own honesty, your own integrity, your own conscience, your own truth and who you really are.
Your magician within can open you to your own clarity, that of your laser focus, which is so critical in this time as the past which so often has been something you relied upon to create your present is letting go, has let go. Therefore, a need for focus, attention and intention not on the singular future but a selective future that you want to create in your present.
3. The 3rd component is the High Magician can ready you for all the downloads from the vortex of the Goddess and Sirius. The high magician can produce and add elegance to the centring, to the clearing, to the thinking and feeling and to the crafting that is so vital to the unfolding of your spiritual path.
4. The High Magician, Real And True Magician not yet awake can add elegance and excellence to the magic that you already know, to the work you do with the magical child, the magical aspect, to the work you do with a magical life, techniques that you have used and used so well can now work like they have ever used before and just a few seconds can come alive.
The mist of manifestation and technique can become so much more than it has ever been, the pure visualization, the pure statement and what we will work with over awakening the magician is to get into a place, into a residence, where all you have to do is ask and it happens. That kind of excellence and creation. It is the high magician in each of you that can add that excellence.
Additionally, the high magician will open you to commitment, so it can open you to the chaos, it can open you to the imagination, to the creativity and yes to the power, to the unique kind of power so critical to the high magic that is the next step in creating that positive future, dreams and creating virgin Futures and creating a new kind of human being, who can thrive in a new world, thrive in a new world.
Lastly, we suggest it is the high magician, a real and true magician not yet awake who can lead you through the doors of perception to the great work, to the next step in the great work, the discovery of the true masculine and full feminine, the discovery of the new feminine and new masculine, lead you to and guide you to the sacred return to oneness, oneness with yourself, oneness with your world, oneness with your higher self, with your soul, your spirit, and a oneness with God Goddess of all that is. This and so much more.
During our in-depth one-on-one sessions, we will heal the blockages, call back forgotten lost power and wisdom and In turn, we will set in motion a tradition of waking the True, the Real , the High Magicians Magic within you that will last countless years.
It is one of the most beautiful ways and exhilarating ways to.
The Third Thing That Really Opens The Door For Negative Ego Is The Fear Of Responsibility And Accountability.
The Pressure Is As Everything Is Going Faster You Don’t Ever Want To Be Wrong Or You Never Want To Make A Mistake.
New Daily Inspirational Write-Up For Monday, June 20
And again your society in its technological advancement and its speed is in such scary now to make mistakes. It is scary enough.
We have used an analogy of those high-speed races.
Bonneville Speedway is an area of the Bonneville Salt Flats northeast of Wendover, Utah, that is marked out for motor sports. The speed racers can go 900 km an hour or as fast as they want to. They draw this line with paint and then they are driving these cars as fast as they can and they have to stay right on the line. Because if they vary even the slightest little bit, the variants of the speed are such that they crash. They go way off course. Well, when you are driving your automobile when you driving 120 km an hour you have to be more alert than when your driving 50km an hour and indeed when driving 50km an hour you can make the wheel go back and forth and correct very easily. At 120 km an hour, such a move like that would be a disaster or at least scary as hell.
Well, the same is very much true in your reality it’s going faster now, it is going faster and we would suggest here part of that is because of the conscious intervention in the evolution of consciousness. But nonetheless, it’s going faster. Therefore it is scary to make mistakes.
The answer is to increase the amount of willingness not to deny it. Whereas you are dealing in your reality, you are going to make mistakes and what might have been fifty years ago a little mistake in this and this time may be a large mistake. Whereas fifty years ago if you blew it you could start over again more easily but you can still do that today but it’s not as simple.
The point here is that mistakes can be more departmental but they are going to still happen, but the answer is not to deny the existence, to pretend it won’t be there, to deny the responsibility and the accountability. But rather to be more quick and alert to them. To be faster to respond to a mistake. A mistake can cause you a great deal of damage now that might not have occurred previously. Therefore, you need to be more aware of mistakes now than ever not less. You have to be quick to catch them and correct them now.
Then again there is a trade-off there because just as it is going faster and you can make more mistakes so it is things can go right and the rightness affects you more quickly also. Therefore, the benefits of your reality happen more rapidly just as the mistakes of your reality can happen more rapidly. Therefore, to be more attuned and alert is what is perhaps required or rather asked but the lack of that opens the door wide and invites the ego In a Big neon sign saying enter here.
Because it can cover, that is one thing ego is good at, covering, rationalizing and denying anything you don’t want to believe or hear or understand.
Ego Is Part Of Your Personality, That’s Why To Kill It Is In A Sense to Lump Off A Chunk Of Your Personality.
The Ego When Threatened With Being Killed Does Everything In Its Power To Go Under Ground, Or Rise To The Occasion To Over Come And It Has.
New Daily Inspirational Write-Up For Monday, June 13
To see what the ego looks like, how it functions and to get a grip on handling it. Either through releasing it or through busting it
To look at ego what is its nature, what is its origins, what is its messages and we will go from there. There is personality, characteristics traits and temperament. That personality is the interaction between temperament and character.
We would suggest here to go further and talk about the temperament in terms is set and you determine your temperament which you will have with you throughout your life.
There are four basic character functions or four basic character types, which are both positive and negative output and you can change that, you can change from the negative components of your particular set of characters to the positive or you can change one set to another. You have that option.
But as far as temperament is concerned you will approach it similarly and you will keep that temperament through the rest of your life. It was chosen that way by yourself.
We would suggest ego is part of your personality, it most definitely is part of your personality that’s why to kill it is in a sense to cut off a chunk of your personality. We do not encourage nor does your ego. We would suggest it does not think Kindly of you when you talk about killing it and things like that. It won’t stand still for you to get close enough to even attempt to kill it. So why don’t you just stop trying to kill it and rather get rid of it and have it function properly either through releasing or busting?
A rather easy approach is to talk about killing, It is rather a simpler approach to talk about killing the ego most definitely and very much think of it in that particular regard the part of you that in your reality is functioning and realizing that there are things your doing wrong and things you want to change about your self, etc. As a result of that of wanting to change, well we will succeed by cutting this part off of you. If you walk funny, take your legs off that will solve that. You wouldn’t very much like that nor go on for a cure. Simply the ego, when threatened with being killed, does everything in its power to go underground, or rise to the occasion to overcome and it has.
Whereas in a sense if you were to approach your own broken leg for example that is a disability that you have with the idea of let’s harness it, set it in a cast, that’s cause it to heal, let’s change it do it can be healthy again. Indeed You would want to do that similarly the ego will cooperate more fully if you indeed go after it to correct it rather than to eliminate it.
